The Crossroads of Heart!

When I look back at my life and the journey so far, most dots are now well connected. There are still few things/events/circumstances that are still not logical to me. May be with passing time, they all will make sense some day.

Every decision was an amazing move. Some were impulsive and some were highly calculated risks. At the end of the day, what matters is the cumulative experience. One of my spiritual friends told me that the end destination is the same. The choices we make today lead us to that end destination. Any path we choose will ultimately bring us to one end goal. This philosophy contradicts with the one where it is said that we make our own destiny. Despite so much reading, hearing and introspecting, I am yet to find this answer. Its an interesting dilemma - to find out the ultimate truth?

The trouble is when you are standing at a crossroad where not one answer is good enough. There are choices one need to make and at times heart wants more than one thing at a time. Here I am standing at a situation, where i am so close to realize my dream for which i worked for years. And at the same time, the time it took to finally achieve it has made the whole 'want' non-exclusive. Its not the only thing that i want now. There are new needs, new desires.The difficult part is to choose between these two roads. Both equally necessary and both equally important. Its funny how these things work. 

I think the way to decide should be to put all efforts to find that one small thin silver line that differentiates from two equally good options/path. It totally reminds me of the situation in 'The alchemist', where Santiago is standing in the midst of a dessert and he is not sure which direction to go. He had just met an amazing woman of his life right midway in his journey to the Treasure. He had a difficult task to make a choice! Either he goes back to the woman and forgets about his Treasure. Or he chooses his path in the dessert and move towards his Treasure :)

Hopefully dots will connect soon!

Jini