Flashback

I am someone who for the longest part of my life has endorsed to never look back - be it for good or for bad. Once a phase or an opportunity or a period is gone - it means its gone. I can safely say that this belief system has worked for me. Said that, what i have also learned is that when life puts you on a challenge, its actually a test of your belief system than you. So when you react and respond to situations to the best of your knowledge is motivated by your own inner self.

I didn't have clear goals for 2016 and hence there is nothing much to look back and compare whether i really achieved what I planned. This year was certainly the most mentally exhausting year. I constantly felt that I am on a road trip - moving from one place to another, meeting new and sometimes weird people, was put under different environment and before i could know, things were changing. There wasn't any pit-stop, a chance to step back and re-evaluate the plan. Given all the madness, I am still thankful for the high moments of the year.

One of the things that I am really proud of is that I survived despite all the madness, which is motivating because I know I am only getting better from here. 

So 2017, you are most welcome to our life.. Bring us joy, new adventures, peace and lots of happiness.

Jini

On the other side!

Life on the other side of the fence almost always looks so beautiful, so perfect. It is, perhaps our human intelligent cells, which jumps to the next opportunity to compare and to put things into relativity. We generally like to measure our success by comparing ourselves with others instead of measuring our own milestones and see how far we have arrived.

Counting our own blessings is so important. More so now with the whole evolution of social media, it is vital to stay grounded and be lot more practical. This is one of the most common topics of discussion between me and my very good friend. Especially, mediums like facebook, instagram and whatsapp have been too intrusive and open about human lives. It tells you everything about someone who is socially very active - where did they go, what are they doing, what food they like, their beliefs, their friend circle, affairs, breakup and EVERYTHING.

Whatever it is, i feel that these social mediums have turned into a page 3 of the online world. One is supposed to look good to be able to feature at the centre of the page or to garner more likes. It is so ironical that there are people who are going through shit loads in their personal lives and yet they wear such pretty masks when it comes to their digital life. For e.g. I know this couple who are on the verge of a breakup and they are going through a rough phase  and cant stand each other in real life. The next thing i see on facebook is that they are posting a cozy picture of theirs with a fake smile and definitely fake pout. 

May be it is the other side of digital transformation - paradox of human behavior!!!

Jini

Midnight Mashs'

Writing is so therapeutic. I definitely consider myself an amateur writer but inspired by the thought of expressing oneself – in some form. I always thought that writing is a far-fetched goal and the one which I am absolutely incapable of accomplishing. But the inspiration came from Paulo Coelho. His work is so incredible and his style is so simple and easy.

My friends with great command on the English language would conquer with me that I have a very weak hold on grammar and vocab - but when I read works of Paulo Coelho, I felt that this is genius. The whole thought that “I just need to be myself” and the job is done. And here I am – mashing my midnight thoughts without worrying much about my grammar and vocab :)

Today was a day full of nostalgia – kept remembering incidents from past. In 5 hour long journey for work, with no access to emails, had nothing else to do. While it is very common to get flash back, but today it was a bit different. My thoughts were neutral. Sentiments did not overtake my mind. They were just thoughts and I was an observant. The feeling was different and pleasant. My mind kept remembering people who came in my life and left leaving behind their impressions. It felt like one Bollywood movie – each character and their little nuances. What they said, what did, how I felt, how I reacted/responded, how they reacted/responded, and those situations – as if it was happening now.

For a change, it was nice to just be an observant and not delve into the traps of mind and its emotions.

Jini

Jini's Blog (jini.blogspot@gmail.com): The Illusion

Jini's Blog (jini.blogspot@gmail.com): The Illusion: Success never felt so illusionary and so tangible at the same time. In the hunt to achieve the success, it almost felt like an endless run...

The Illusion

Success never felt so illusionary and so tangible at the same time. In the hunt to achieve the success, it almost felt like an endless run. As if there is and there will not be an end, no salvation and that running itself is The Destiny I am looking for.

In the journey, I criss-crossed various roads, struggled, tumbled but kept running. I passed so many important junctures – some were delightful and some were lessons. Running almost became addictive and a habit in its own form. I left behind so many things. Someone rightly said, the journey to the top is almost always lonely.

I would lie if I say that I never feared. I was dreading within. Questioning almost every other step – but one thing that remained constant was that I never stopped. At times I looked back, almost ready to take a return, yearning to go back not knowing why I would want that after coming this far. A voice so profound within me said “Don’t stop, keep going”. I once made a promise to myself – “Let’s go. You don’t know as yet how will you get there but you will end up good.” And I started without knowing the means with just one faith that I will do something good for myself.

Now that I am here, it took a while to understand that it is what I really wanted. What I learned from my experiences is that when success or destiny is round the corner, one dreads to actually face it. Because once you do that, there aint a goal to run for immediately. It created an imbalance for a while till I figured to enjoy this vacuum and live in this moment. It is blissful!

It is an illusionary bitch.

Love,

Jini

Karma

Recently I read an article in which the writer talked about how life is an endless journey, how the only thing that really matters is the journey, the experiences and not the end point (the death). So simple and true.

It made me think again about the regrets, the bygones that keep hounding each time - but this time I looked at it with a different perspective. I kept questioning myself - why i am holding it? Let it go! Life will never take a u-turn, the time which is gone will not come back, maybe it was meant to be the way it is. May be it all came with an expiry date. It had to go and it is gone.

What matters is the choices that we make now, in present. Isnt it all about what we choose today? Universe responds to our choices which is nothing but the future result of our today's karma.

I am what I am today due to my past karma. I will be tomorrow due to my karma today!

May the force be with us. may we have the wisdom to choose the right, the apt and the best for the humanity and for the nature.

Jini